I should really be in bed...

and this has the air of 'it's been too long, I should post, otherwise, what's the point of this blog?' Ha...there is no point. That is the point.

Can I just say that I'm amazingly happy, that some old and new friends have shown me tremendous kindness in the last few days, and that sometimes, maybe not often, but maybe when you need it the most, life surprises you in a way that is so uncomprehendingly good that you sort of walk with light steps, afraid to wake the gods? I think I just did.

I am not an easy person to love, and I thank the people in my life who continue to do so in spite of me.

seriously, peace